Saturday, May 21, 2011

really?

again, i ask myself, why???

why must humans be so... idk, human? why are certain people so fake? what makes others jump to assumptions? why is it everything i find annoying in people is coming up all around me? why can't people take me for who i am and what i'm doing? without prejudice? or wondering where i'm going wrong?

maybe i'm paranoid. maybe i'm just reacting to who i truly am, but am too afraid to admit i am...

or maybe it's true. maybe humans are human!

is it really worth all this? really?

Thursday, February 24, 2011

thoughts........ very deep...

so i'm attending my grandfather's memorial service tomorrow... the question arose: should i say anything? what does one say after your 89-year-old grandpa dies? is there anything left to be said? is there anything that i, a mere mortal, someone who has only lived a fraction of those years, could could possibly add to the memory or legacy of a now immortal man?

this is really putting things in perspective for me... when i'm at work, do i have the right, or even a reason to complain if i get put in the one place i don't like? what rights do i even have? how can i complain when people all around me are suffering so much more??

i look around me, at the world. full of hardship, turmoil and strife. i see an entire continent rebelling against their leaders, and violently overthrowing them, at the cost of human life. i hear of people dying every day, every hour, every second. i see drug deals go down on street corners. i see teens who have kids. i see people who struggle with obesity. people who can't cope with life, and can't say no. i see people desperate for anything, and willing to do anything for just something. i see kids who die without ever knowing why they were alive. i see people go hungry because they can't afford even ramen noodles. even worse. driving home tonight, i saw the dreaded flashing blue and red lights, and as i got closer, i saw lots of spotlights. in the middle of the road was a motionless white bodybag.

but out of all of this, i think the worst thing is this:
people ask me "why???" and i don't have an answer.

so i ask: "why???"

Friday, August 6, 2010

bored, bored... even more boring stuff... anyone guess that joe is bored?

so, i'm officially positively absolutely bored. that's it. nothing more. i have spent the whole day on the computer, looking for a job, different possibilities, and i always end up on facebook and email. does anyone else see a problem with this?

so mainly, i am looking at one job possibility... the air force. yup, i'm actually considering joining the air force. why? quite a few reasons, actually... money, experience, a chance to see some of the world, but mainly one thing. i'm planning on being the president, so i believe that anyone who wishes to pursue that ambitious job should have military experience... i'm still praying and thinking about it, (in that order) but i am getting more and more sure of it every day... possible jobs i am looking at will most likely be intelligence or UAV's... possibly some helicopter work, but not likely...

so yeah.. i'm still bored... hopefully y'all aren't as bored as i am...

Sunday, August 1, 2010

fun stuff for cameras...

so yeah... i am pretty much set on getting the sony nex-vg10... as such, i am looking into different attachments that would help with filming...

first thing on the plan is the skycrane... not the helicopter, but a awesome camera accessory... this is perhaps the key to doing professional video... great angles, movement, everything... link here: http://www.skycrane.com

second? i am looking at screens for that boom... this means the camera can be 20 feet from me, and i can control it perfectly, monitoring the sound and video portions of it...

speaking of sound, that leads me to my third item... bose headphones... in about a year, you'll prolly see me with headphones around my neck... not cause i'm listening to music, but for when i'm filming, i can monitor the sound...

fourth improvement will most likely be the videomic. most built-in mics on camcorders are omni-directional. this means they draw sound from everywhere around them... this one is a shotgun mic, which is directional. it means it only draws sound from in front of it, and not behind or to the sides of it. link here: http://www.rodemic.com/microphone.php?product=VideoMic

lastly will probably be one of those nice adidas bags to carry all of this junk around... well, probably two bags... that will bring me to a grand total, (if i make the skycrane myself) probably around $2800.... whew... now i'm exhausted just looking at that number...... :P

who cares about the title anyways?

So yeah, let me start by saying happy august! we are now in one of the lesser-cool months, but it is still cool... i guess...

my reasoning behind this isn't based on anything, just what i think... I personally prefer the months of april, june, september, and november... i was wondering why, and then i noticed that they are all even months. they all have 30 days. kinda weird, no?

so jordan died... it was really sad... i am going to be really sad for the next month... :( i don't know how i will survive without him.... (for those of you who don't know, jordan is my flash... SB-600) so yeah... i took him in, and they said four weeks... hopefully i can have it back before sam and chelsea have their kid...

so that brings me to another subject... sam and chelsea are having a baby!!! she is due on the 26th, i believe... which is really exciting! they both want me to come down and take pictures... i'm not to sure i would want to do the pictures right after the baby is born, i might just wait a week, and allow her color to balance out.. (they are expecting a girl... in case you didn't know... :P)

so yeah... not much happening over here other than that...

well, i did go play frisbee today... and it rained... and it was fun... :DD

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

slightly bored...

I don't have much to write about... Hence, I will talk about plans and the future.

While filling out the scholarship application for Thomas Nelson Community College, (of which I am an upstanding student, with a fairly reasonable GPA, and in good standing with the school...) the application asked me to write an essay, responding to one of five questions. I chose this one: "Where do you think you will be 10 years from now?"

For those of you who know me, you will realize why I chose that question... I am constantly talking about where I am going, what I am going to do, and how I am going to do it.

On a different note, I am also doing the Boundless challenge. (http://www.boundlessline.org/summer-challenge/) Today's challenge involved coming up with 6 reasons against abortion.

Here's a thought: How often do we take our lives for granted? what about those who never had a chance? Who never will? Those who are killed even before they come into their lives? Think about that the next time you make plans. Think about those who never even got a chance to have any plans.

Just a thought...

Sunday, July 25, 2010

completely awesome...

this post is for all the camera people... I will hereby rant, rave, kick, cry over, and foam at the mouth while discussing the new Sony NEX-VG10...

For those of you who still don't know what this is, I will tell you. It is one of the first, if not THE first consumer, or rather "prosumer" (cross between professional and consumer... I'll explain that later...) camcorder. It is not only a normal camcorder, but following in the Sony tradition, it has several amazing features.

First, and perhaps most importantly, it uses technology developed for the SLR. The best part about this camcorder is the fact that it has interchangeable lenses. That means if you don't like the lens it came with, you have several other options, (2 at the moment, with possibly more soon) which which you can expand the possibilities. If that isn't enough, you could buy a converter that will let this camcorder accept the Sony alpha mount, which is what all of their other lenses are. And from there, you could buy a Sony to Nikon, Sony to Canon, or practically any other conversion you want, and you could use the lenses you might already have.

So if you are like me, you are thinking, "hey, that's cool, but what makes it so unique?" I mean, we had interchangeable lenses back before most, if not all of us were born, so what's the big deal? Well, that is a privilege that has been reserved for the SLR, and now the DSLR. Like me again, you are probably saying "So? Don't those fancy cameras (mine included) have video built-in now? Can't you use those lenses you already have with the camera you already have?"

While that is true, and while virtually all the new DSLR's coming out these days have video capabilities built-in, they are still an SLR. Besides the fact that they are designed for pictures and not video, the newer sensors are not built to handle something like that. Okay, so why pay extra, and switch from an SLR to a camcorder?

It wasn't until I started digging deeper into the possibilities that I really saw the reasoning behind a camcorder like this. I'll list them for you real quickly:

1) It has a much better form-factor for videotaping. Face it, who likes holding an SLR stable? It just isn't ergonomically efficient.

2) Sound. This is a big deal with movies. If you have an SLR like mine, (D90) you have a mono audio track, through the built-in mic, with no other options. The VG10 has not just one or two mics, but four mics, built to capture the best stereo sound they possibly can.

3) The lens that comes with the camcorder. It is an 18-200mm Optical SteadyShot (as Sony calls it. VR for Nikon, IS for Canon) E-mount lens. The E-mount is new to the Sony line-up, which means it has the newer technology. Because they created a whole new line, they were able to cut down on the size vs. performance ratio. They put a whole bunch of fancy electronics, fairly good glass, and some awesome programming, and viola, you have a lens. True, the hassle of buying new lenses is always a pain, but hey, they bundle this lens with the camera, and you most likely won't have to buy another one for it for the next year.

3.5) This is built on the last one, but deserves it's own point. It has auto-focus. Because they made a whole new line of lenses, they were able to make the camera (or camcorder) and the lens talk more. This means that you can have crisp auto-focus capabilities while you are filming. I'm stuck on my D90, which I have to manually focus, and trust me, when you are running, it is rather hard to keep both hands on the camera.

4) The sensor. If you are like me, you love the depth-of-field that bigger SLR's will produce. One of the main reasons they can do that is because they don't have a pin-sized sensor hiding underneath some big body. They have a sensor that, in this case, is 23.4 x 15.6mm in size. This is definitely not the camera on your phone. This qualifies as a full APS-C-sized sensor, with all the rights and privileges that come along with it. Add some fancy filters, some nice programming, and their BIONZ processor, you have 14.2 effective megapixels of awesomeness.

5) User Interface. It has a really high-definition viewfinder, and then a 3" fold-out screen for your viewing pleasure. Not to mention the nicely placed buttons, scroll-wheels, zoom, handles, and hand placement, it is well-designed from the ergonomic standpoint. Now obviously we'll need to see how it feels, but knowing Sony, with 25 years experience building these things, I'm sure they won't mess this up.

Still think there aren't enough reasons to get it? well, let me throw in a couple others... Headphone and microphone jacks, both a hot-shoe, as well as a universal cold-shoe, (not powered) free editing software, both MMC and SD capacity, compact design, and on and on.

The drawbacks? Well, so far, there is only one, possibly two...

1) Price. Maybe it isn't a big deal for you, but $2,000 is on the more expensive side for me, especially with school to pay for... True, you do get quite a bit for your money, and I would say that it is an incredible deal, but it is still a bit prohibitive to jump into the video market...

2) This is still a bit ambiguous, but the video type might be a problem. It has a CMOS sensor, which shouldn't be a problem, but it is 1080i, instead of 1080p. (Quick explaination. Interlaced, or "i," is where different parts of the sensor alternate back and forth exposing themselves. (think even and odd.) Progressive, or "p," goes from top to bottom, without skipping any. It starts at the top, goes to the bottom, and starts at the top again.) Now, why is this such a big deal? Well, if you are doing anything with lines, the 1080i might tend to have "jello" lines, where they will bend, because they are being exposed at different times. If the sensor and processor is fast enough, this won't be a problem, but it is still listed as a possibility.

So now you know about the Sony Handycam Camcorder NEX-VG10. Most likely more than you wanted to know, but hey, now you are prepared for when it is released in September.